straitjacket means

the first time she got a straitjacket, it was for fetish purposes.
she looked over at valentine and decided it was time for fun.
the straitjacket was for her to stop cutting her fingers, slitting her wrists for random boredom. it was to stop her from feeling so dead and imagine herself to be a mad person for the acknowledgement that she was mad would mean that she knew something about herself. it was to stop herself from feeling so hollow and not even know who the person she was, seeking emptiness/the vacuum out of air itself.

notes in your pencilcases
paper seek, paper slip
laces on your chest
silk down your thigh