when stars bleed

... they seek company
amongst your misery
they grin and grin
like siamese cats literally

a painful semester, i am sure soon i will need some sweetened coffee to power up my mornings. believe me, it's cut throat i wonder if i'll get into an accident just to get away from homework.

sometimes i believe, i seek company just for the sake of it. i wonder when i'm rich, whether i'll pay just to see dolled up company?

my principles are at stake (maybe i should gamble on whether i'll go to heaven if i ever get a tattoo)

while gods have wine

sometimes i see friendship as a pathetic thing
perhaps it is my perspective of friendship that eats me

BAD BLOOD

by thiej+lou; fienj=lu; monster fables}bfd
you who can save my life; quiet! for the night is sleeping

school's eating my brains, i'm taking on more than i can chew. i shouldn't have to try so hard anyway since i'm so passive. grrrr, mew.

BLACKBERRIES

taste thee blackberries for they turn sweet in summer

CLASS CLOWN

i dreamt KENNY P. asked me from a piece of paper "DEFINE THE MEANING OF A FRIEND"
i remember hesitating (and he said: "what? dont you know how to answer this?") before answering jokingly: "A FRIEND IS TO BE LOVED AND CARED FOR" i actually wanted to recite that verse "LOVE IS PATIENT LOVE IS KIND" as a joke. i found out i couldnt even that either. but the point where i hesitated, i realized i didn't know an answer either.

joycie polly like a monkey kissing down a valley
(what's the other line again?" - 1999-2000

imperfection

coffee stained teeth and paper chapped lips
(portrait of MYSELF)
an inch deep dimple and a hint of a grin
(portrait of love)
a canine and a smirk for imps
(portrait of death)
imperfection, what do you seek?

perhaps to taint the simple image of love, answered it
perhaps to conquer the wholesome idea of death, it mused
imperfection; like how the hair slips in the corner where your neck meets your shoulders imperfection; like how porcelain broken your eyes taunted

a grey and pink remix of blossoms
your love bite amidst cotton (imperfection; for silk always seems better)

ecstasy high

"color me blind"
your insecurities i hold them close
they taste like candy, feels like silk
slips through my fingers
ecstasy high.
- 13j said

yet they are your drugs,
they keep you alive
the colors they bear,
have colored you blind.
- krystallnacht said

QUOTE ME

infinity, she said
the fabric lie they made
MRS UZUMAKI NARUTO and the many daydreamers
jack enchou
straitjacket fetishes
oh follie hollie!
(you're my) candy stripper on the run

ENSEMBLE

i believe i have become irreversible; a hypocrite that betrays my own conscience. i dont have much factors of filial piety i believe.

ENSEMBLE ASSEMBLE; put together a me.
what you believe to be in my symphony catastrophe
apostrophe, claustrophobe
(breathe the absurd theories of Darwin, Einstein and dreams)
piece your music pitch by pitch
and your perspective of what my instruments should be
afterall it's what you presume, what pleases thee eye should be

- assumption; spectator; a third party's POV

whenever i see an old man walking down the street, my heart breaks a little. i never really got over it.

EXPIRE

so he lay there, asleep till cobwebs turned to dust
for mako can only do so much
expire, inspire, aspire
we're behind infinity she said
that's what she said!
he believed for that was what fools in love do
they believe

YOUR WALKING ZOMBIE

you're in my fable
holly and amber

i desperately need a hobby; i have no life.