blackmail

i'm an angry girl hatred jealousy envy blood blood blood all in my dictionary bleed bleed bleed for me i miss you the voice in my head says die die die wait till i feel so empty and broken that i'm beyond your attempts to save whatever you have used against me blackmail chain me sweet to that corner an asylum i've always wanted to the madhouse i say to the madhouse.

all my favourite words in my vocabulary

peekaboo games

this blood is not like the usual ones you play with
he lets the red slip through his fingers
sweet sweet red

she forgets

yes i do love you, they lie

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error it states.
refresh restart so when you get lost in a maze how do you restart?
(shikamaru plot)
forget teaser a hint of a grin
amnesia a solution for all
it should be an alcohol, i bet it'll come in handy

rules to obey (thirteenth hour and its laws)

i can save you, he whispered to her in that corner
but oh don't they all say the same thing
they lie (hooker, prostitute, liar)

pushed/forced/driven into a corner (madness, weakness, suicide)
make-believe can be another reality (what ifs and wishes)

draft

i (abhor)(admire)(am pleased)(like)(demand)(command)(detest) your devotion
it calls for much sympathy
pity on my part, she grins sickly

selling your devotion for my fun

wind secrets down the train
draft wrath drift sift through the many (levels)(volumes)(measures) of devotion

now now, how do you compare levels of devotion
measure faith?
define love?
dictate hurt?

the war of death gods

the last of death gods

devotion does not equal to commitment
your loyalty does not need my permission
commit sin; signing your affections

for a bottle of love

checkmate, the queen eats his king
it's your choice for this is your last life to see me, the queen asked her knight
thirteen lives, i grant you to see me
thirteen chances
thirteen choices

first to devote (1)
one to sense (2)
one to watch (3)
one to seek (4)
one to meet (5)
one to impress (6)
one to know (7)
one to feel (8)
one to touch (9)
one to change (10)
one to understand (11)
one to die for (12)
last to believe (13)

rouge
mannequin

savior

(you lie)

what happens when your savior lies to you
nothing.

washed out like how denim bleeds
intuition leads you to secrets unopened
envelopes that seek to please

what about an oracle's son
what of a prophecy's son

sold and displayed
overrated wantings all in that lithe body

definition and volume

promises have become so overrated
so has love and its concepts
love and its charade of flirts
(brothel, secrets and echos of lies)

whole, God has made us whole
wholesome, eyes nose mouth skin ears
a mind, to think
instinct, intuition to sense
what's wrong what's right and what's inbetween

void

"so, what's love?" skye said

savior
i'll like to think that everyone needs a savior
to hold on to, even if it's just the corner of a sleeve
strong emotions like pulling the collar of a shirt
wake up, he says
like punching his chest
i hate you, she says over and over again
then amidst death, chain down your savior
one after another, it becomes a burden/ a sacrificial lamb/ responsibility

void, space, negative, vacuum
avoid, neglect, abandon, ignore
forgive, forsake, rewind, replay

i believe i read these sad stories, so that to a point of time i can break down just like them