is that alright with you, asks lisa hannigan

it's not that i dont want to write down the events that i've been with you
cause reliving it, then knowing you had fun outside me
it feels painful and tight around the heart
that's how selfish i am

then i rather forget but sometimes it comes back to me like a balloon
deflated but it's there, a dull rush of air

or you could say it's like a blown up balloon which might pop any moment
not knowing when hurts even more

but do you know the feeling you get when you dont know when it's going to happen
then it happens and you dont feel like you should feel
the excitement of it goes below the 100% you ought to give?

goes with my theory of preparing beforehand, not to expect much or you'll be disappointed, apparently it works the other way round too

and if you (i), the reader am thinking what happened, nope no particular event happened

watch "BEAUTIFUL LIFE" for quotes though